It's a fine line between losing hope and resigning yourself to the sad truth of life.
The sad truth in my life is that i WILL NEVER be able to catch a break. Everything in my life is a goddamn struggle. Since about the age of 14, every day of the week starts out with me not wanting to get up. "What's the point? It's going to be the same fucking thing over and over." And you know what? It has been and i'm starting to think it always will be.
If i want a motorcycle? I'll have to work three jobs. I get paid for work? I've got to let people borrow money with the full knowledge i'll never see it again.
If there's a girl i like? Well, she'll always have a boyfriend. And if she feels the same way about me? Well, tough shit, because i'm not as good as the boyfriend. Do you know how frustrating that is?! The last relationship i was in (if you could call whatever sort of fucked up situation it was a relationship) ended.. oh.. i don't know.. horrible. So it's not like it's everyday i actually learn to like someone. Double if they like me back.
And don't even mention school right now... i just may kill someone.
So yeah, is it losing hope? Or is it just resigning myself to the fact that, hey... this is as good as it gets.
My fingers are bloody from trying to claw my way to the top. | 
